So this week has been a little difficult. Gunnar is going through a phase and I am doing my best to navigate through it all while still remaining calm for baby number 2! I’m not going to lie the transition into a human hotel isn’t easy. But I feel reminding myself that now I have one telling me no, soon there will be two! So I am grateful to have the next 6 and a half months to grow.
In that time I’m realizing I will definitely have to learn a couple new tricks. None of us are perfect especially me so I thought it might be helpful for myself to take a moment and look back at some of the stressful moments of the week and see how they could have gone different. I thought about the nap time mess ups and the feeding blunders, the morning school routine tantrums and the hitting and I realized there was one thing what could have changed it all. My attitude, I have to remind myself Gunnar is only two and I can’t take it to heart every time he hits me or ignores me or freaks out. My emotions are heightened right now because of this pregnancy. Last time I wasn’t too emotional this time its safe to say I’m loosing it.
So I have to remind myself that he has only been on this earth for two short years. In those two years he has gone through so many changes. New homes, new babysitters, lots of traveling and right now it’s all boiling into more transition. Soon he is going to have to give up his bottles or sippy cups and his diapers for a big boy potty, not to mention soon he will go from ruling the roast to being a big brother. It ain’t easy being him while yes everything is done for him he is constantly being thrown into new situations and he handles it like a champ for the most part.
He doesn’t understand my emotions or why they are happening and it isn’t his job to get that. That job goes to my amazing, loving husband who consoles and comforts me through every freak out. Of course he waits till after I calm down to laugh but that’s okay he is allowed to. So I’m trying to turn a new leaf I know with pregnancy comes little wiggle room. Especially at the beginning I can’t really control the emotional waves I’m surfing.
So I’ve written a list of goals for the next 6 months.
- Go back to meal prepping the night before.
- Set up Gunnar’s big boy bed and start a new nightly routine including a story and possible a puppet show.
- Try not to take everything so personal. I should have caught on to this pregnancy right away because honestly since we conceived I have been a sensitive wreck. But that’s not an accuse anymore I’ve gotta toughen back up!
- Just Breathe!!!! I have to keep calm and remind myself, “It isn’t the end of the world!” Emotions can be tricky things but pregnant or not we shouldn’t let them get the best of us.
This is a special time for Gunnar and I. Theres are the last couple of months where he will be the only baby in the house. I have to constantly remind myself to stop and cherish them while we are in the middle of it all. The middle of life! By creating this list I am making a promise to him and to myself that I will try my hardest to enjoy every last minute of it!