In my opinion we need Thanksgiving more than every this year. From what I’ve been hearing form most that it seems to have been a hard year. Thanksgiving is a special time of year that is meant to shake off all the stress and bad vibes and […]
Month: November 2016
I must say so far 3 months has been my favorite. I’m sure with every passing month will come a new favorite but now 3 months is it! Not only are we finally getting the hang of things but we are figuring out life with two little boys! Even more exciting is that Bodhi’s personality as well as likes and dislike are becoming clearer. Bodhi is much different from Gunnar, a lot more than I could have ever imagined. I always thought Gunnar matched my own adventurous spirit but Bodhi takes the cake. He has a thirst for movement that I truly can appreciate. He is only three months old and yet he wants to be everywhere all at once. I mean the kid has already started rolling over and attempting to crawl. I know that sounds nuts but I’ve seen it with my own eyes and its insane. 😂
Bodhi loves to move and watching him try to get his way to want he wants to hilarious. He has great leg strength but it still lacking a little in the arms. So he ends up rolling even more. He often ends up in tears of frustration. He sees what his big brother is doing and he wants to be there with him. With Gunnar we were terrified of him moving but it’s different now. We can’t wait for Bodhi is start being more mobile. Then he and Gunnar can trot around together and there will be less tears.
- Rolling around
- Trying to crawl
- Staring people down (he’s a bit of an over analyzer)
- Being held by his mama
- Standing while holding on to my hands
- Daddy’s kisses
- He LOVES all types of music and won’t hesitate from wiggling along whenever it comes on.
Recently I was asked that dreaded question that no woman ever wants to hear,”When’s the baby due?!”. Ouch even remembering the moment still stings a little. There she was a very nice older woman, a customer asking for my help with one of our skin creams. I came over and right before I could say anything she stopped me and with such excitement in her eyes she asked the unspeakable. Of course my baby is only 2.5 months old so I shouldn’t be surprised it happened. I mean after all another baby means another new form. I’ve come to realize that with every pregnancy my body changes. The first time around if was really hard to expect and love my changing form for what it had become. I wasn’t easy on myself, and my inner voice was constantly nagging me on how I looked. At the time I didn’t think anything of it. I thought I was being hard on myself because I needed to be and if I was going to lose any weight that’s just the way it had to be.
This didn’t actually help me at all! All the negative energy/thoughts spiraled me into a hole of bad dieting and lack of exercise. I had a terrible postpartum experience and it wasn’t anyone else’s fault but my own. I went from feeling amazing and beautiful, loving my pregnancy glow to dwelling on all my extra weight and hating on myself regularly. It took me awhile to shake it off but thankfully I did.
It wasn’t until my second pregnancy and postpartum experience that I realized I needed to be a lot easier on myself. After all I just delivered a baby into the world. Not only that but my birth plan went so utterly wrong that a break was needed. I must admit it was probably one of the best decisions I’ve made to date. Society has created this warped picture of what a woman’s postpartum body should look like. Every day it feels like there’s another celebrity mom being photographed looking stunning, hair perfect, make up done right and of course looking skinnier then ever. What they don’t mention is that we are all different. While the Olivia Wildes and Blake Livelys out there come out of the hospital looking stunning I may not. And that’s okay, first of all we have totally different body types, second my career isn’t based around being photographed and filmed (THANK GOD) plus, yea I’m a little more adventurous with my diet then they may be aka extra cheese on that burritos pleaseee. 😂. The best thing us new moms can and should do is to just give ourselves some slack and be happy with where we are. After all our bodies are now the site of a miracle. Why would we want to change that?
Recently I found the quote above. I must say it’s pretty perfect for my current situation. A reminder to always love yourself at every stage of the journey.
My little boy is officially three. I now have a three-year-old wow that’s crazy to say. But alas it is true and to celebrate his birthday I’m making his favorite recipe, we call them Gunnies-Cakes but really they are protein pancakes. Anyone with toddlers knows, […]
I’m not shy about my postpartum experience and I never intended to be. Even before Bodhi was a thought in my mind I knew the next time I wouldn’t keep everything so hidden. Of course the first time around my postpartum experience wasn’t as heavy. […]
This last year has moved by so fast. We’ve had a couple pretty huge life events all happen one right after the other. I must admit it feels like a blur and at the same time it was still a very memorable year. And now I have a 3-year-old and a 3-month-old. WHAT?!? Looking back I already feel some of my favorite moments slipping away from me. I can still remember Gunnie’s first real photo shoot. I was so excited to dress him up all decked out in holiday attire. He was probably less than 2 months old and it was an extremely snowy night but I just had to make this photo session happen. Of course he screamed the entire time while I cried inside. I had envisioned something so different. Something like those photos you see of that little sleepy newborn all bundled up in a ball because that’s what all newborns are like right? No! 😂 A lesson I would surely learn in full soon enough. When I had finally had enough with the screams of a newborn I picked him up and just held him. Instantly we both calmed down and he fell fast asleep in my arms.
Birthdays meant something different to me before these two banshee babies. It was a month-long celebration devoted entirely to yours truly. But after children my thoughts on birthdays have change with every year he gets older I morn a little. Even now when I do certain activities with Bodhi, I’m constantly reminded of those sweet memories when Gunnie was just a baby. While I cherish what I have now with both of my boys, some days I long for those restless nights with Gunnie. We were new parents, that feeling of being a new parent is something I never want to forget. You’re so confused and excited all at the same time. Everything is new and different and with your first you’re both experiencing the thrill of it all at the same time. Not to say that things with Bodhi aren’t just as fun but its different, with each child you have different experiences. Like now I know if you’re going to do a newborn shoot plan for the unexpected and in my case it’s remembering my boys won’t just sit there and look pretty.
Over the weekend we celebrated Gunnar’s third birthday! It was truly an amazing day I’m so grateful to all of our friends and family for being able to celebrate with us. I know our little superhero had an amazing day. He and his little brother were so worn out from it all that they were easier than ever today and tonight besides the fact that one is at my feet and the other on my one arm all is good. (Yes, that means I’m writing this with one hand, be impressed 😂) I was too busy making sure the birthday boy was having a great time so I didn’t really get any good shots. But what I do have are some fantastic shots from that photo shoot I was telling you about!
Happy Monday All!!!